(A-3 1/2)
(J- 15 months)
posted by Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores
Running into target in borrowed heels and no tights, a southern girl's bare legs against the Minnesota winter. purchasing her panty hose, wearing the only nice dress she owned, she drove unsure of herself to meet him. He took her to one of her favorite restaurants they sat at a table in the very back, and she thought to herself "things might be ok, this could work."
It was a leap, maybe more of a push, that we had both taken. Released from positions at a ministry because of misconduct, I followed him to Minnesota because I was to scared to go home, to scared to let him go, to scared to face life. Our first official date, no more sneaking no more secrets, was Valentines day 2008.
I don't even have a picture from that night ( my IPOD had no camera, any one remember that ancient device?) But it's framed in my mind. We were two broken people, clinging to all we felt like we had left, each other and God.
Four months later, he moved to North Carolina to be with me.
Two months later, we were engaged.
one 1/2 months later, we were married.
Nine months later, She came.
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posted by Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores
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| The Harvest is Plentiful... |
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| I am the Vine. |
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| workers of the harvest |
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| Example of Grafting |
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| Narrow is the gate to the sheep pen. |
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| First fruits.. a land flowing with milk and honey. |
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| You are the fisher of men. |
posted by Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores on P52
Back to Project 52! It seems with school and my beautiful two month old, this is the only thing I can make time to post for! ( yes, I remember that I missed last week...) but on to the challenge!
This was my first idea for week four's theme, "self portrait" but I hate the IPOD quality photo.
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posted by Rachel Flores
"how do you do it?!?"
the attention to self always makes me blush and fumble. the appreciation rarely comes from my own generation, but from those who have walked before me, stumbling as it may seem, on the trails that one travels as a parent. But they have also cruised on the pavement of college life, and thus the gasps of wonder when Christopher and I explain our situation to people. He works full time, both full time parents, full time students.
I sell short everytime.
I laugh it off "We drink alot of coffee!"
Or, I just smile.
I sell Him short every time. Why do I fail in to give the Glory to God for the simplest of things?
In church I sing and sing it, but to speak of his Glory daily I fail to do it. And it dawned on me today, as I answered the question yet again, that I am failing to give testimony. Giving your testimony is'nt just a 3-5 minute prepared speech that starts with the phrase " well I was raised in a christian home"
Giving Testimony is giving Glory to God whenever the opportunity arises.
"How do we do it? By the Grace of God! we firmly believe God has called us to the mission field and so if He has we believe He will map out every step of the way. So if God led us to Crown, God can get us through the semesters he knows we need to get through. God knows us, he knows we have two daughters, he gave us that responsibility. Therefore, We get through by trusting that God knows me and my situation, and if He calls, He provides the means to fulfill that calling"
Much better than coffee and goofy smiles huh?
So today, on this first day of the new semester, I learned
Give credit where credit is due. Give glory to God.
Rachel.
posted by Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores
Hello New Year!
This year, I am participating in taking a photo a week, to challenge my photography skills and start opening my eyes wider to the world around me. So, this week the challenge is Resolutions.
posted by Rachel Flores
So much for 12 posts!
as soon as finals finished this past week sickness came upon my whole house, even little Jocelyn! so I have been recovering, helping the girls and the hubby feel better, and trying to catch up to christmas! sunday? seriously? this year I feel like the christmas season slipped through my fingers. So this post is just a song I heard on the radio, that has been ministering to my heart this past week.
Enjoy!
posted by Rachel Flores
As of tomorrow I will be a free woman to truly enjoy the holiday season- school work free! this semester has really flown by! though I no longer have the crazy nesting instinct that inspired me to redo the girls nursery before Jocelyn was born, I do have a desire to do some crafts, and once school is out I'm hoping to make up some fun Christmas decorations. So we have some tunes ( see day 1) now lets decorate!
For instance....
These Cranberry Ball decorations are simple, beautiful, colorful, and in expensive!
| I thought this was a great way to remember everywhere you lived- even if it is not the original key! |
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| Button Garland! |
posted by Rachel Flores on Christmas, Music
posted by Rachel Flores
I had an encouraging meeting with a couple of my professors today. The point of the meeting was to see if I would be accepted into my department or not, but when you write papers for the same people and see them three days out of the week, they know you without knowing you. It was nice to be able to share some of our story and where we are headed and where we have been.
Hm, I don't know how to write this without seeming prideful, or indulgent in the approval of man. But my professors seemed impressed with How we are handling things and our goals and direction. And honestly, it was encouraging. Often in my head all I hear is the conflicting voice;
your being a bad mom because your going to school;
you should quit and focus more on the girls;
you don't belong;
your trying to do too much; you'll never make it the mission field;
you guys are headed in the wrong direction;
Basically, a constant wind of doubt.
But In reality, I'm making A's and B's. The girls are emotionally and physically healthy. Chris and I are learning the beauty of teamwork in a marriage. We truly believe God has called us here, and we truly believe God is the giver of life and gave us these beautiful girls. There are students who have been so supportive and helpful by babysitting for free.. God is providing, paving a way, He is our provider... not just financially, but in every situation. And perhaps this is our testimony, and we don't tell our story enough. perhaps it is not bragging, but witnessing.
And this witnessing is what combats the doubts.
posted by Rachel Flores
I was feeling rather confident this morning. I'm not sure if it was lack of sleep, excitement for finally being home, or the narcotics I have been popping every four hours, but I felt confident. So around eight am I place the happy, just fed Jocelyn in her bassinet and go to the girls room to get Ariella up. There is my proud first born, sitting in her chair butt naked. We start talking and working on getting dressed like any other morning, when I hear Jocelyn crying. So I go get her so she does'nt wake Chris, bring her back into the girls room and start changing her diaper. Ariella is running around chattering like usual and I'm half paying attention and I hear the word potty but usually she waits for me and then I hear
Splash!
"Mommy! I fell! I fell in Mommy I fell!
I dash (as much as any just sliced open woman can dash) into the bathroom and Ariella is pulling her self out of the toilet, so I scoop her dripping wet bottom half off the toliet, hear Jocelyn cry and realize I left her alone on the changing table.
dash again. back to the changing table with potty butt trailing behind telling me all about how she is wet and she fell in and she does'nt want to wear real pants today!
phew. this is going to be harder than I thought.
Rachel
posted by Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores
This is the end little one.
Tomorrow I will finally meet you, tomorrow I will end the speculations and look into your brown...or blue.. or green.. eyes.
Tomorrow it will no longer be playful bumps and kicks, but ten toes and ten fingers to count.
Tonight is the last time I will feel you moving inside of me, yet I know our closeness will transcend the physical realm, for you are my daughter. I was picked by Jehovah to labor for you and get to know you and love you and share my very body with you for nine months, to prepare you to meet your first rush of true air and to feel your first flecks of sunlight. You are already alive, but we are getting ready to whisk you out and introduce you to life. to your purpose, to your destiny, to the creation which was also made by the one who made you.
Tonight I can hold you in my womb, safe, enclosed, protected. From evils that might rape your eyes and violence that might strike your ears and putrid smells that might invade your nostrils. This is the effect of the opposite of what you represent right now in our world, this is the effect of sin. And as my hands support the outside of the womb you are in, my lip murmur prayers for the messiah to be known to your gentle heart very, very soon.
He makes beautiful things, he makes beautiful things out of the dust...... (Gungor)
You have been handmade, hand picked, hand placed. The hand of God is on your life already. Jocelyn Michelle Flores,
Welcome.
posted by Rachel Flores
I can see from my window my neighbor walking back and forth, into the laundry room, from the trash can to his house, nothing abnormal about his gait or demeanor, except what I know what he is doing.
He is going through their-now just his-possessions.
His wife just passed.
And here it is, the slow days after were the leaves still blow and the sun still rises and falls and he still takes out the trash as before but now it is trash for one or things of her's he will no longer need. And he washes the sheets that hold her smell, and soon it will fade because she will not lay there again.
You would never know, but I know.
And I think about death, how it has skirted my life and never seemingly touched the inner circle of those closest to me. I have never lost someone that I have known deeply. I knew my neighbor, but the comfort in the fact that she is rejoicing with the Lord right now settles the matter in my mind and I can move on.
But his bedside is empty and his routine of visiting her in the hospital has ceased and he will walk home at five o clock every night without holding her hand anymore.
Yet the leaves still blow and the sun still rises and falls and we all still wake,eat, live and move.
Rachel Flores
posted by Rachel Flores
Sometimes my soul is just tired.
not my body, I got enough sleep, but my soul is weary.
Sometimes I just want to lay on my stomach again.
Sometimes 35 pounds and 35 weeks gets to me.
Sometimes this apartment confines me instead of comforts me.
Sometimes I know what I'm supposed to think but I know what I am thinking.
Sometimes I want to grow up and move on yet grown down and stay a kid. at the same time.
Sometimes I want to be alone but I want to pour my heart out.
Sometimes I just want something I can call my own.
Sometimes this is my conflict.
Sometimes is this day.
posted by Rachel Flores on Apples, Toddler Tuesday, Tot School
I like to make my posts with fancy titles that both start with the same letter.. it's fun! but moving on...
Toddler Tuesday!
I found this website recently that talked about tot school. Pretty much it is starting to take specific time with your toddler and working on skills/projects/knowledge they will need for school. We are planning on homeschooling our little one, so I figured this would just be a good way to slowly move into that practice. The website is here, but if you type tot school into google you will seriously get a wealth of information.
Disclaimer.
this website is overwhelming. seriously. like, "I'm a failure as a mom might as well let a pack of wolves raise my child" type of feeling. It is definitly something to be taken slow, and something to just glean a few good projects and kinda do your own thing with. At least that's how I am making myself feel better about it.
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