I
don't appreciate you enough.
I am quick to look past
the obvious and into the "need-to's"....... we need to work
on this, change that, be this.
But I undervalue the
steadfastness of who you are to me. When you said “I do”, how you
meant it with all your heart. When you say I love you, those words
are backed by actions. There is a underlying foundation, three years
in the making, called trust.
I don't appreciate it
enough.
But trust means that
you've seen how I don't like to do the dishes and spend way to much
time doing pointless things and I sometimes yell at our daughter and
my appearance is flawed, and you don't run.
It's the beauty of
reaching my lowest and the vulnerability to reveal my highest and how
fragile you know both are. You never drop them.
It's being able to look
at you and say "wanna know something silly..." and the
comfort like an enveloping blanket of hearing you laugh with no
judgment or suspicions of thinking I'm dumb.
The moments when I have
wanted to give up and the moments when I thought this doesn't work
and the moments when I was so unsure. These are overlapped by the
moments when we are in our comfy's making nachos in our kitchen, and
as you lean across for cheese you sneak a kiss.
You are a man of
integrity, that is doing what you said you would do, you are a
man following the vow's you made when you said you would stick
around, for better or worse. I tune it out sometimes, but it resounds
off the walls of our relationship.
It's that glimmer in your
eye. sometimes it fades to the background, but now I know it's not
because you love me less at that moment but because you struggle like
me.
you are like me.
and I am like you.
and we are one.
and it is because of
trust. This thread woven in and out, sometimes visible but most the
time unnoticed.
this is what I have with
you.
Archive for August 2011
